Friday, July 25, 2014
My husband just tells me to snap out of it because I have a good life.
Well, if my life is so good; why do I pray that friends that have cancer that it wouldn't have happened to them but me.
Why do I hate waking up in the morning?
Why do I wish my mom would have aborted me back in the 60's so she wouldn't have the stigma of being a single mom back then?
Then he tells me look at our two girls. Yes, I love them with all my heart but they would be better off if I wasn't around but unfortunately I can't leave.
See, I gave up my career 18 years ago to be a stay at home mom. Then when school came around, I was lucky and didn't have to work until my youngest started school. So now I substitute teach so I can be home during holidays and summer. That's the good news. The bad news is that the money I make goes towards the girls incidentals and there usually is nothing to save. No savings, no getting away.
Don't get me wrong. My husband is a great financial provider but that's about it. He has no compassion, no sensitivity, etc. He said it is me that I changed. Don't think so.
The last time we made love about 10 years ago. Yep, you read right. Pretty sad isn't it. I went into surgery two years ago, most spouses want to kiss their spouse goodbye not mine.
My girls are now 17 and 13. The 17 year old graduated with her license to cut hair. What is she doing? Working at Justice 6 hours a week. Who is paying for her college. We are. Dad said it is ok. I'm sorry but the kid has not learned any responsibility. I have tried when it was time for her to get her license to drive. Dad handed her a car and is paying the insurance and most the time the gas. She is still upset that she has a younger sister. Get over it princess!!!
My 13 year old is smart as a whip and I see her going places if she can get over the fact that she HATES people. Yeah she is therapy because of it. She was never like this is elementary school so hopefully it is the middle school blues.
We can't go on vacation because the two of them fight like cats and dogs. Pretty sad. I still have to leave the mall if they act up because I am not dealing with it.
Need to have my knees replaced. Not in this lifetime. Our household would come to a complete standstill.
I have tried my best with a man whose first excuse is "i have to work". He never comes to any of the girls events, oh maybe one a year. Oh maybe the one a year to show his face. I tried to explain to him that other fathers do it but he doesn't want to hear it. It's not like he is a doctor or a lawyer.
I have no family really to speak of. Well there is the uncle who is a life long bachelor who has a speech problem and can't read or right so well. He calls when he needs something or then he sets it up for me to help out and then doesn't call. But if I don't get back to him right away I hear about it.
I have a younger half brother and family that live 86 miles away, last I saw them 4 years ago. I'm tired of always having to go up to visit them. Tired of the excuses on why they can't come down here.
Mother has been called 10 years. My "dad" has been called 30. My biological dad - no clue. Never met the man, didn't know about it until 10 years ago. yeah I am bitter and MAD.
Tried therapy, it's not for me. I use to be a very outgoing and social person. Not anymore.
I honestly believe that I am better off dead. At least then my organs can go to people who want to live.
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Last nite I was one of the lucky winners from our local newspaper, The Baltimore Sun, to see a sneak preview of “Jersey Boys”. I really wanted to see this movie, because I grew up listening to Frankie Valli and The Four Seasons – thanks to my mom and dad.
|Denisa Protani, posing in front of one of the four cars that was at the sneak preview.|
|Before the movie. There was $400,000 worth of vintage cars at the Sneak Peek.|
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
The Terrorist's Daughters: T.O.G.G.L.E #1 (The Other Girls Get Lucifer Everyday)
This book is about two sisters, Zahra and Aalia, and their lives in Pakistan. They realize that their father is a bad person, but in the beginning of the story they didn't realize how bad.
This first book takes them on a wild and cross the world adventure. Along the way they meet Arsalan, who goes along for the ride.
This book takes you on one adventure after another while the sisters learn more about their earlier years. They also meet some characters which will tie their story altogether.
I really enjoyed reading this book because it gave me some insight into a different culture.
With each chapter, the author had you guessing on what was going to happen next. I think this book was well written and can't wait for the next one.
I would recommend this to young adults (the high school level) and adults.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
A friend from high school, had a litter of Corgi's about seven weeks ago! They are nicknamed the Super Seven! The above picture is not them!
I have enjoyed watching the videos she has taken along with all the pictures!
What an awesome experience just for a fact finding mission! Justin, the store manager, was very nice and spent a lot of time with me explaining all the wonderful benefits of the DualTemp(TP) layer. Justin knew I was there on a Smiley360 Mission and did not rush me along at all.
Justin explained to me that the Dual-sided layer has two remotes so each of you can set your ideal temperature.
You can choose from cool to warm at the touch of a button. Justin explained to me that if you want to heat your bed up, you turn the layer on while you are getting ready for bed (make sure the comforter is pulled up so the warmies stay in).
The DualTemp(TM)Layer evenly distributes temperature for head-to-toe comfort. This is when Justin tucked me and it was awesome! I layed on the cool side but I could stretch my arm out and feel the side with the heat on. It reminded me of our old waterbed but much comfier.
The DualTemp(TM) has a breathable comfort layer softly cushions every curve. It was very comfortable to lay on and I could have had no trouble falling asleep right in the store!
There is a tiimer allows for automatic shutoff in one to nine hours.
The sizes available are Twin XL, Queen, and King. Justin even mentioned that some people that have King Size beds will get the Twin XL, if only one person is interested in the the DualTemp(TM) - what a great idea!
Three-year limited warranty offers peace of mind.
Right now Sleep Number is offering a 100 night sleep guarantee. If you don't like if you can return it after 100 nights. You don't even have to take it back to the store. They will send you a postage paid envelope to return it to Sleep Number.
Also, there is a 2 year free interest for the DualTemp(TM).
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Saturday, November 16, 2013
Was driving home and one of the people, the next street over, was riding a lawn tractor (mind you 90% of our yards are smaller than .25 acres. He was running over his ton of leaves and shooting them out into the street! I stopped hoping that he would let me drive by because my luck I would get the stone that would bing/ding the Rogue. Nope he kept on going. Are you that lazy that you can't do something else with them? I know in some states, some towns want you to put them in the street and they will come by and suck them up - not JOPPATOWNE! All I can say, is I am glad I don't live next to him. Hate to see what he is going to do if we get any snow and he has to shovel his sidewalk.
Monday, November 11, 2013
My daughter is a senior and a member of the Harford Tech Varsity Cheer team and we have lots of spirit but we didn't have a professional banner for our team! Yes, we do have lots of posters (handmade with love) but a banner always stands out, especially when you move on to regional and state competitions. Our team is a former State Champion from for the Winter 2012 season! Our team also made it all the way to the State level for the Winter 2013 season.
This past season, that ended on November 9, 2013, we competed at the regional level. Proudly displayed was our new banner from BuildaSign.com. The banner was a surprise to the team, so when I was let into the competition our coach's husband had already placed our posters up, but luckily their was room to display it but not as high as I wanted it to be displayed! That's ok, when the coach and the team saw it they were so shocked!!! The winter season starts this week, so when we go to our first competition in January our banner will be placed high with PRIDE!
Use of the BuildASign.com website was very easy to understand and to navigate. I registered and in less than 15 minutes I had designed my banner. BuildASign.com has clipart that you can use for your printing project or you can upload your own. Just remember that your image must meet certain requirements (or they will be happy to help you to create a logo or assist you with your existing logo):
- Must be less than 20MB in size- Must be an EPS, JPG, TIF, BMP, GIF, PNG, PDF file type
My banner arrived in about 10 days, which was great because we were on a huge time constraint. I was SO excited, that I wouldn't even show my daughter because I wanted her to be just as excited as all the other girls, when she first saw it hanging up on the wall!
The banner came packaged in a sturdy box which is awesome for carrying it to and from competitions and then can be used for storage during the off-season. The banner is made from heavy weight vinyl with grommets in each corner. I just grabbed some of those removable hanging clips to hang the banner! The banner is so beautiful. The fonts and size of the lettering is exactly the way I wanted it. What you see on your computer screen is exactly what you will get!
BuildASign.com does have several different banner hangers that the banner can be hung inside or outside.
This banner will last the team a LONG time!! I am just sad that at the end of the winter cheer season, we will be handing it off to the younger cheerleaders because our time will be over as a high school cheer family.
Not only does BuildASign.com have banners, they also have signs, car magnets, bumper stickers, decals, business cards, flyers, and retractable banners. If you are a new business, club, or team -- BuildASign.com is a one stop website to get everything you need to get your NAME out to the public!
Before I placed my order, I did browse their customer reviews and knew I was in good hands.
This post was written by me (Kim Holsapple aka Frugal MD Mom Corgi Mom). Thank you to BuildASign.com who provided the complimentary product for my review. The opinions I shared are my own, and BuildASign did not tell me what to say or how to say it.
OxiClean Max Force Gel Stick works great on dry blood! We wound up with some blood on our love seat cushion, so as soon as I noticed off came the cushion cover and I treated it with the OxiClean Max Force Gel Stick and threw them in the washing machine.
Once they were done in the washing machine, they looked as good as new!
I LOVE this product and every week, I pick one up because I don't want to be without it EVER!!!!!
Saturday, November 2, 2013
I'm not much of a scrapbooker, so I have stored all the girl's important papers in a filing cabinet.
Today I had to had a brainstorm I got storage containers that fut under the bed and I started a box for each of them.
I love this idea because now whenever I get important papers or memories I can just put them in the box and its so much easier than in the filing cabinet.
Whenever they are ready to leave home all I have to do is give them this box of memories. I think this is really important because my mom was never a saver of anything and there's some things I wish I could've shared with my girls.
The boxes I got our plastic that seal really well because about 6 years ago we had a major water disaster and I lost all my pictures from when they were little. Thank goodness for Grandma she had lots of pictures from when they were little so I was able to get those when she passed away.
Monday, October 28, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Hot spoons will stop the itch of a mosquito bite.
I just read this on Life Hacks and so want to try this.
Here in Maryland the mosquitos are so bad. They are out all day long. I remember when April was little and would play in her sandbox she would be covered in bites.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
We had both wanted to see it, so we were really excited! As Denisa, stated before the movie: "This is not about a comic book, this is not a sequel and it is not a kiddie movie"!!! True, true, true!
Here is one of the trailers, in case you haven't seen it.
This movie kept you on your seat the entire time. I really don't want to say too much because I do not want to spoil it for anyone.
A couple of quotes from the movie:
"First Rule of Magic, Always Be the Smartest Guy in the Room"
"The Closer you Think you Are - - The Less you Will Actual See"
Yes, we really don't get a good grip on the characters and where they come from, but for this type of movie you don't need it!!!
Kristina was surprised about the mention of Egypt Mythology. Kristina is a huge House of Anubis fan so she got pretty excited when their was mention of how some magic drinks are associated with Mythology.
As soon as the lights came on, Kristina asked if we could buy this when it comes out to DVD!! LOL